I am about to get real honest!
After me and Kyle got engaged and it sunk in that I was
really going to get married I started to worry. I wasn’t worrying about my relationship
with Kyle. I was worried about what people would think of it. I was 19 years
old when we got engaged (he proposed two days before my birthday). I started to
think about the rude things people would say, since marriage at a young age is
not common where we are from. This was seriously affecting my relationship in a
negative way. I started to obsess over people’s opinions of my relationship
(Big Mistake). So, I asked Kyle if her could keep it off of Facebook until I told
my family and friends. Well folks, days, became weeks, and those weeks turned
into months.
One day he just posted it. I got on Facebook and I am getting
comments and phone calls from a ton of friends and family. After about an hour I was feeling overwhelmed
and was starting to get angry with my fiancé. I was mad at him for blind siding
me with his Facebook relationship status change. But let’s be real it was time I
grew up. God revealed to me Kyle was not in the wrong, but I was. Not everyone
is going to like or accept the fact that I am twenty years old and I’m engaged,
and that is ok. I don’t live my life to please people, I live solely to please
God. I was being insecure, and worrying about the wrong things. I love people,
I am such a people person (I get it from my mom) but, I can’t be a people
pleaser. I put my trust in God, that He will sustain my relationship, and so
far he has done just that. I have completely changed from who I was and am
still changing. My relationship with Kyle has helped me develop into a better
woman. I won’t let the fear of peoples
opinion hold me down anymore, and neither should you!
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